after the final run

I feel more proud of our class as a whole than I ever have before. Of course we all still have a long ways to go, but I think that everyone in all three of the classes did some of the best, most simple yet filled work I have seen thus far. Most everyone looked comfortable and grounded and there was not this need to “show” the work. In terms of our class and my work, I felt like the energy and pacing was a little slower at the beginning although it did not hinder us too much. I thought we were talking and listening well to each other and that our responses aided our fellow actors on stage as apposed to responding to “show” how we felt about something. There was a moment when I was with Masha in the first scene near the stage and I knocked over the seagull cut out that was leaning against a stage leg. In the moment, I looked at what I had done, took note of it and let if affect me, but I felt that my need to communicate what I was saying to Masha was so crucial that I needed to give my focus back to her. But looking back on that moment I think I could have used the seagull falling over more. If I knocked something over near the stage, of course I would fix it because I always want to please and the last thing I want to do is offend my host. On the other hand, maybe Konstantine set that up for his play, so I don’t mind if that gets screwed up because it will be harder for him to impress Masha. In the group scene, I felt better about just letting myself be there listening and not feeling like I always had to do something. When we all entered for the play scene, I felt more connected to the group than I had before. I think everyone was more connected because all we had out there was each other and I thought this was especially apparent in the big pause before “the angel of silence…” line. I enjoyed the feeling of drowning in the silence and I thought everyone dealt with it really nicely.
It was a pleasure working with all of you (as always) and it is a great privilege that we all get to see each other grow so much through all of the training we have had so far. Thank you all and thank you Matt for all the time and work you put into the class/project.