how to feel?

this is how I feel before our performance today.

I feel incredibly nervous and I wish that there was all the time in the world to really work this. This material is massively difficult and what I found particularly hard was finding my objective in all of the self-pity that seems so present in the monologues. Also, I found it really hard to respond on the line multiple times in the scene work. What I am working on for today are these two goals of fighting for what I want by engaging my partner and not just acting by myself and also responding on the line rather than taking pregnant pauses. There is so much more to discover about this scene. I think I am hitting the tip of the iceberg.

Alborz